HELP me.

HELP University College.

That's where I'm going to be spending the next one and a half years of my life.

I don't feel excited, and I'm worried about what to wear.

HAHA.

have a little faith

|°нσиģ;[b]lnexplicable[/b]¬ [i]Nonchalant, yet [s]sehnsucht&saudade[/i][/s] says:
faith exists for one's comfort
just as justice exists for one's convenience.

Sorry Hong, your words manage to explain what mine can't.  :) 

Faith is the confident belief or trust in the truth or trustworthiness of a person, idea, or thing.^[1][2] The word "faith" can refer to a religion itself or to religion in general. As with "trust", faith involves a concept of future events or outcomes, and is used conversely for a belief "not resting on logical proof or material evidence."^[3][4] Informal usage of the word "faith" can be quite broad, and may be used in place of "trust" or "belief."

-wikipedia

I do believe in God, and no I am not an atheist. However I feel that faith has nothing to do with religion and all that. Faith explains things where science can't, this may not be the right way to deal with things, but in times of desperation, sometimes, faith is all you've got. It may not have the most logical explanations whatnot, but it does do wonders. Faith keeps a person sane, it gets people through their toughest moments. It may not be right, it may not even exist, but take away faith, we are lost. Well most of us anyway. I believe in faith, because sometimes, its all I've got.

"faith exists for one's comfort"

I realize that there are many loopholes in that small paragraph of words up there, and that if you look closely, there are many points to attack, but..

Actually, but nothing. Feel free to attack them.

I'm off to watch movie trailers. AVATAR. :D

my apologies

I feel obliged to announce my return to the world, to brighten your dark gloomy days with my presence, but the real reason in this action is to let the world know that I still exist! I'm still here, all 5"4(I PRESUME) of me. My weight shall not be disclosed because I have not weighed myself in ages and fear the worst!

I know that I have not gone out with my friends in a billion years and that you people have already written me off your lists, most of you even consider texting me an invite a waste of money. That may be true, true to the core in fact, but a text message is less than 20 cents. If you could see it in your heart to spare that 20 cents and perhaps just text me an invite so that I feel less ignored, it would make my little heart very happy. You could just pretend you're tossing 20 cents to a beggar. Charity, after all, does the soul wonders.

Heh, I guess I am insecure.

And no, ladies and gentlemen, I still can't go out with you.

When life gives you lemons, squirt juice in its eye.

Owl City has beaaaautiful songs.

So guess what, Prom is less than 4 hours away, by which time I'll be up and gone. Guess its a good thing, wouldn't wanna see me in a dress now would you? ;)

Past 7 days going around China has been a blast. I couldn't care less that its a communist country, it is breathtaking, mesmerizing and downright memorable.

I love Hangzhou & Shanghai like crazy. :)

My mind is in a fuddle, will type coherently, soon.

Until next time, xoxo, hugs and kisses, peace, lol, cool, et cetera..

gloo, sticky.

I just realized that I am really, and truly insignificant.

I mean, I always knew I was not really important but its only now that I realize, I'm practically non-existent!

Right now, I feel like if I were to disappear, the world would go on, just like it always has, and always will.

Way to dampen your holiday spirit stupid.

The clock is ticking way to fast.

SPM has been over for approximately one and a half days. Theoretically speaking, I should be having the time of my life now.

I should be..

Snuggling up in bed at 10 at night.

Waking up and 10 in the morning.

Eating left over pizza for breakfast,Ice-cream for lunch and cereal and cold milk for dinner.

Reading all those books I bought.

Finishing my very own PORTFOLIO of nothingness.

Rolling from the bottom left to the top right corner of my parents' bed.

Exercising my way to a gorgeous bod.

Increasing my stamina.

Mastering the art of meditation.

Doing Yoga.

Cleaning my room.

Getting rid of old books.

Watching every season of So You Think You Can Dance over and over again.

Getting Gossip Girl(All Seasons).

Watching House!.

Watching all movies that have been left in the drawer.

Brushing my teeth after every meal.

Packing my bags for China.

But I'm not. I'm here fixing the computer(blogging in the meantime)

I only have 26 days of holidays left. Take away the time I'll be freezing my butt off in China, that would be.. 19 days left. Then another few days in Ipoh and a few days in Penang. I would have a total of less than 11 days left! And out of those 11 days, there would probably be days where I just don't have time to do anything. That means, I effectively have a week of holidays left.

AHH. 

AND I HAVE NOT GOTTEN MY FORECAST RESULTS OR MY DEPOSIT BACK. Which means I have not registered for A-Levels in wherever.

What to do, what to do.

woof. woof woof.

Throughout the whole SPM, my next-door-neighbours-to-be were renovating their to-be-home.

 hack hack  hack, drill drill drill, hammer hammer hammer. 

Ugh, and they're STILL not done. It's a bloody link house, how long do you need?!

Oh, they have a Rottweiler. Hope it doesn't bite.

Char Siew vs. Siew Yok

The debate for the tastier meat has officially begun, start casting votes in the Cbox people because setting up a pole requires energy and I'm quite content being a fat blob of laziness right now.

I shall put forth my points, may the non-believers be enlightened. (Char Siew FTW)

As said by fellow(I presume) Char Siew lover Melvin Seow,

" But char siew esp the burnt ones take the cake. or pork."

Char Siew

Cha siu

Cha Xao

Cha Shao

Chinese Barbecued Pork

Char Xiu

Char Siu

Char Siew PAO

This isn't Char Siew, but its just as good.

Pork Ribs/Pai Gu/ Pai Guat

My God, I love Char Siew. I feel sorry for pigs sometimes, but every time I try to become a vegetarian.. I CANNOT. I JUST CAN'T. I love veggies, but what's life without meat?! SERIOUSLY. No ham, no chicken, no beef, NO MUTTON. I cannot live a life like that. I could, if I absolutely had to, but I don't want to.

Anyway, I think Char Siew is delicious because..

IT JUST IS. You can't question meat like that.

May the better pork win. CHAR SIEW CHAR SIEW CHAR SIEW CHAR SIEW CHAR SIEW CHAR SIEW CHAR SIEW.

Get a whiff of that

What fluid do you use in hydraulic brakes? 

WHAT DO I CARE? I'm never gonna be an engineer, I don't need to know how the bloody things work. Ugh, I despise physics right down to the core, TO THE CORE.

Today marks the end of all my anger, hate and frustration. I am now, a happy child. :)

...

Oh, went to my dad's office after school so I walked through KLCC. I am constantly amazed by that bakery right at the entrance opposite the florist, its always so packed but I can never figure out why.

Every time I walk through the doors, this overpowering, drowning, downright awful smell whacks me right in the face. WHAM BAM, I smell rotiboy. I could just die there and then. I find that bread/pastry extremely sickening, it makes me all nauseous and ugh. It's just, blaaahh.

I wasn't always like this..

There was a time where I would welcome this coffee-butter bun in a paper bag with open arms. But it crossed the line. Sometimes, its just too much. There is no turning back, finito, HABIS! 

I will never look at this bun with the love I once did.

 Its over. 

SPEEECHLESSSS

I... Have nothing to say.